Oh that demon within. Do you make yourself known? When the switch flips south and light exits the room you attack my thoughts without mercy. Your resolve and will is perfect. You drive your aspirations deep down into my soul. And there I am, the monster within playing around inside me like a wrecking ball. You exist in all of my doubt about life and tear me apart the more that I attempt to run from you.
But I am going to fight no longer, only to tenderly embrace your presence. Does this baffle you? Does this make you weep at the thought of the grip you once had that exists no longer? You held onto me so perfect and so tight due to my inability to see the battle increased your strength. Like quicksand I sunk the more I rapidly moved. But like I announced before, I embrace the darkness now.
Things have changed. I can see well now that darkness can deliver light. There isn't any fear in this heart anymore with reference to you showing up. Why? Because... you are here...right here inside me. Not walled out from me anymore. Not pushed away. Just here with me. Present. Really present.
I'm truly mindful of what you now are and who you turned me into. I'm not attempting to fool anybody any longer by showing them a fake smile on my face. No, I will just be myself. So I tip my cap to you to all of the times you cut me down. Now, let's go for a walk and work this thing out. I would like to hear what you say about all of the years of the past. How proud are you? How much fun did you have? Are you happy with your accomplishments? Maybe I can even clap to your success?
But we are moving on and this is the start of a long relationship. I'm going to start chatting with you for the 1st time. But now, my decisions are based primarily on light. It's time to begin living my life and make the best decisions I can. But I'm aware that I must talk with you...oh harsh devil inside. You can show me a trail that absolutely is worth exploring in of its own. You can show me places I've always been frightened to go. But to ignore you further would be out of stupidity. Foolishness. Fear.
So let's go for a walk. I'd like to hear what you have to say.
But I am going to fight no longer, only to tenderly embrace your presence. Does this baffle you? Does this make you weep at the thought of the grip you once had that exists no longer? You held onto me so perfect and so tight due to my inability to see the battle increased your strength. Like quicksand I sunk the more I rapidly moved. But like I announced before, I embrace the darkness now.
Things have changed. I can see well now that darkness can deliver light. There isn't any fear in this heart anymore with reference to you showing up. Why? Because... you are here...right here inside me. Not walled out from me anymore. Not pushed away. Just here with me. Present. Really present.
I'm truly mindful of what you now are and who you turned me into. I'm not attempting to fool anybody any longer by showing them a fake smile on my face. No, I will just be myself. So I tip my cap to you to all of the times you cut me down. Now, let's go for a walk and work this thing out. I would like to hear what you say about all of the years of the past. How proud are you? How much fun did you have? Are you happy with your accomplishments? Maybe I can even clap to your success?
But we are moving on and this is the start of a long relationship. I'm going to start chatting with you for the 1st time. But now, my decisions are based primarily on light. It's time to begin living my life and make the best decisions I can. But I'm aware that I must talk with you...oh harsh devil inside. You can show me a trail that absolutely is worth exploring in of its own. You can show me places I've always been frightened to go. But to ignore you further would be out of stupidity. Foolishness. Fear.
So let's go for a walk. I'd like to hear what you have to say.
About the Author:
Evan Sanders is the author of The Words Of Encouragement a website dedicated to spreading encouraging words to everyone who visits and giving them a reason to continue chasing after their dreams. If you are stuck in a rough place, perhaps dealing with that devil within right now, please read these quotes about depression. They will help. A lot.
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